hi pacar

pacar,

sudah hampir pagi kenapa kamu belum pulang juga? apa si bos mu itu masih menahanmu?

aku ga habis pikir kenapa bos mu itu masih menahanmu di sana untuk terus dan terus bekerja? toh dia sudah sangat kaya dengan segala merk mobil dan hp nya itu.

pacar,

aku ga sampai hati liat kamu bekerja tanpa hari libur, masih ditambah lagi dengan lembur yang hampir setiap hari. belum lagi dengan jam piket yang ga perlu itu! itupun belum termasuk temen-temen kerja yang seenaknya dan ga tau bagaimana memanusiakan manusia.

pacar,

apa kamu ga lelah dengan pekerjaan mu yang membuatmu demam hampir setiap hari, yang membuatmu ga bisa lagi mandi dengan air dingin karna pasti kamu pasti langsung pilek karena itu, yang membuatmu kehilangan waktu untuk bertemu, bercanda dengan teman-teman dekatmu, yang bahkan membuatmu tidak punya waktu untuk sekedar membersihkan kamar.

pacar,

carilah pekerjaan dengan bos yang berperasaan, yang gak membuatmu demam.

love just ain't enough

I know a man. He's about 24, or 25? despite of his past, he's a good man anyway.

When he was around 18, he met this girl. Then, like other love stories, they felt in love. But no so long after that, they broke up. The girl felt in love with another man and it seemed that the man did the same thing. they dated with another man and girl for about a year. Then 12 months after that, i dont know why, but they agreed to have a relationship like the old times.

This time, they could hang on with each other characters and habit although they fought almost everyday. well, like another young couple right? when mouth and tongue work much faster than brain :)

but in the middle of their love story, the girl got pregnant. they came to the thought to do an abortion but the man loved the baby so much that he didn't have a heart to do so.

they got married.

unfortunately, marriage wasn't enough to stop the arguing between them. The man tried so hard to be mature to save his family though sometimes he failed to do so. while the girl tried so hard to hang on to save her family, convinced herself that everything's gonna be okay though sometimes she failed to do so that she got angry to the man and vice versa.

several months after that, the baby was born. the baby was so beautiful that the man felt in love at the first sight he saw his daughter. Everything was so beautiful when suddenly, out of the blue, the baby was sick.

everyone was panic.

the baby was hospitalized.

the baby couldn't hang on that she died a few days after the man brought her to the hospital.

the man and the girl was so blue. so sad. their worlds were crumbled.

They got so angry,why their daughter left them when they started to think that they actually could start a family?

question that none of them could answer.

Then, they started to blame each other, pointed out each other's mistakes.

Couldn't stand the reality, they got divorced.

brothers in puberty

seperti yang sebelumnya pernah saya ceritakan (pernah cerita ga ya? lupa saya), saya punya adek 2, cowok semua. Yang persis di bawah saya namanya chandra (foto sebelah kanan) dan yang paling bontot namanya putra (tentu aja foto sebelah kiri). Selisih umur chandra dan putra cuma 18 bulan dan sekarang mereka sama udah kelas 3 SMA. kenapa bisa bareng? karena waktu chandra kelas 1 SMA, dia sempat maintenance server setaun, sama seperti saya waktu kelas 2 SMA. tapi ya gpp, human makes mistakes. toh naik kelas terus juga bukan jaminan bakalan sukses.

dulu waktu kecil mereka ini lumayan deket, ya paling ngga sering lah main bareng. sayangnya seiring bertambahnya umur mereka, hubungan mereka juga keliatannya semakin renggang. ya salah satu alasannya mungkin karena memang lagi puber. maklum, ketika puber kebanyakan remaja malah jadi ga deket keluarganya dan jarang berbagi cerita, dan sekali lagi sama seperti saya. dalam sehari chandra dan putra bisa bertengkar berkali-kali, kalau dalam sehari mereka tidak bertengkar itu berarti mereka lagi diem-dieman.

alasan lain dari merenggangnya hubungan mereka mungkin dikarenakan karakter mereka yang memang sangat berbeda. chandra kadang orangnya rada perfeksionis, dia maunya semua serba rapi, walaupun kadang ketika bersih-bersih kamar dan rumah memang masih agak ga bersih sih tapi gpp, paling ngga dia peduli. sedangkan putra orangnya lebih cuek, dia ga begitu peduli kalo kamarnya berantakan, yang penting dia nyaman. hal-hal sepele, seperti beres-beres kamar ini yang sering banget bikin mereka bertengkar.

tapi untungnya, (setau saya) mereka ga pernah bertengkar perkara cewek, karena sepertinya mereka juga punya selera cewek yang beda *thank God*

honestly, kadang saya kangen sama saat-saat waktu mereka akur, bahkan saking akurnya, waktu umur sekitar 7/8 taun, mereka pernah membuat kasur di kamarnya terbakar karena - dengan polosnya - mereka naruh lilin yang menyala di bawah kasur mereka yang hanya berjarak sekitar satu jengkal dari lantai!

saya juga kangen nonton TV bareng sama mereka, karena sekarang kalo chandra di depan TV berarti uta akan ada di kamar dan juga sebaliknya.

saya harap sih, ketika masuk kuliah nanti, emosi mereka sudah lebih stabil jadi lebih bisa menerima sifat dan sikap satu sama lain.

ah cant wait to see that moment :)

know your limit

some people say "burn your limit"

but i myself prefer to say "know your limit". no matter what, we are still human. we do have limitation.

that's why we get angry or upset since we cant be patient all the time.

that's why we cry when we cant bear the pain.

that's why sometimes we give up something.

whether we like it or not,

there's something we cant get

there's something we cant feel

there's something we cant touch

there's something we cant see

there's something we cant taste

there's something we cant find

no matter how hard we try or how fast we run pursuing thing we want

believe me, there's something that is not ours!